A Daughter

I remember when I first laid eyes on Katherine, when they first put her, wrapped in a green blanket and pink cap, into my shaking arms and I remember vividly that first night when we stared at each other for hours. I was in awe and a little terrified of this totally new person that…

Strength and resilience

I used to think that my primary job as a competitive lifter was to continuously get stronger in the gym and that this would directly translate to better performance in competition. Grinding in the gym, day after day, working the accessories and hammering the main lifts, while continuing to work on recovery and nutrition… that’s…

Foundations

This is not a post about lifting. Or maybe it is, but indirectly. Most of my life is about lifting weights in some measure and the longer I lift, the more inextricable lifting becomes from all the other pieces and the more it’s a metaphor for my life. John’s grandmother passed away recently and yesterday…

Two weeks out from the next step forward

Saturday evening I was driving somewhere; I can’t remember where and it doesn’t really matter, but as I wended my way through the night lights and coastal roads, “Castle on the Hill” by Ed Sheeran came on the radio. I’d never heard it before and…. well… music is a funny thing, isn’t it? I can’t…

Midnight ramblings

It has been a rough couple of weeks. Rowan (our border collie) died rather suddenly last Monday and since then I’ve been riding a roller coaster of exhaustion, grief, training, joy at memories, excitement at a forthcoming competition, grief at the memories of other dogs remembered, joy at the imminent arrival of a new puppy,…

Looking forward and chalking up

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. About commitment, about choosing to continue pursuing something in the face of obstacles, about why we continue to flail at things that repeatedly kick us square in the soul, and what is is that makes it not only possible, but almost inevitable that we will get back…

Depth of focus and coaching

One of my diversions when I’m not picking things up is photography. I spent many years as a professional artist and you never truly lose that eye or the need to let it stretch its creative legs periodically. Sometimes I just wander around with a camera and see what looks good, but sometimes I set myself…

On mediocrity

“It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.”― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets I was working through a couple of things mentally last night, trying to figure out how to fix my bench, examining all the aspects of it that need work from…

Easterns 2016

It is perfectly possible to hold two seemingly conflicting ideas in your head at the same time, which is why I can say that I am both extremely pleased and incredibly disappointed with my most recent meet. Sounds silly, I suppose, but in a meet like this one, I don’t compare myself to other people,…

Because I made a Promise

Fear doesn’t always make sense. That’s not to say there isn’t a reason for it or that it doesn’t serve a purpose, but often it outstays its usefulness. Often it becomes a habit or something we are so wrapped up in that seeing past it is like standing in the middle of an isolated field…

This shit isn’t easy

Note: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental. One cinnamon bun was harmed in the writing of this post.  Everybody is…