First World Problems

Foreward: Any and all decisions made here are about me, my body and my life and should in no way reflect on anyone else’s choices. My thoughts about this process and my body are also not reflective of anyone who lives with, is friends with, coaches, helps or assists me in any way. I make…

Pre-comp thoughts and musings

I like to write stuff down. I write down goals, dreams, ideas, and plans. Sometimes I write for the purposes of sharing or communicating, but quite often I write things never shared just to get them straight in my own head. These blog posts (along with the “drafts” never published) function as a diary of sorts,…

The wood between worlds

  “Well, you know how it feels if you begin hoping for something that you want desperately badly; you almost fight against the hope because it is too good to be true; you’ve been disappointed so often before.” ― C.S. Lewis, The Magician’s Nephew C.S. Lewis has always been one of my favourite authors. In one of…

Resolve

I took a piece of paper off the wall the other day. It’s one I kept tacked up next to the squat rack in the basement and when I moved the rack recently, I noticed it hanging there. It’s a scribbled list of some of the goals that evolved and were achieved over the course of…

Powerlifter survey part 5: I have no more words

Editor’s note: I was going to write a preamble, but it’s not necessary. Everything you need is below. In case you missed the others, here are all the posts in this series: Part 1: Female Masters Powerlifting Survey Results (the quantitative portion) Powerlifter Survey Part 2: training volume, injury, and fear Powerlifter survey part 3:…

The highest peak

I haven’t published anything on the blog in a while, not for a lack of activity in my life, but rather due to a superabundance of change and events that have kept me leaping nimbly from one lily pad to the next to avoid submersion. Now that the dust has settled a little, I almost…

Quiet thoughts and lists

The day after a heavy lift is always a slightly quieter day for me. I know this now and was reminded of it again by a friend this morning; the nervous system takes a hit and needs time to restore itself and this slightly down or quiet feeling is actually restorative. I’m enjoying today. It’s…

Heavy stuff, too late at night.

    I debated whether or not to write this (because who likes admitting any sort of defeat?) then decided to go ahead and throw it out there because it fits with why I write this blog; it’s my story, my roadmap, in a sense, and I use it to sort out in my head…

It’s not the answers, it’s the questions

I haven’t posted anything for a couple of weeks, not for a lack of things happening or life content, but more for a lack of being able to pull suitable thoughts coherently into a meaningful narrative. When I resumed writing this blog, I decided on a few key points: 1. It was going to be…

The art of picking things up has two parts

I wasn’t sure whether to write this or not, but ultimately decided to because this is a part of my journey and this blog is my travelogue, for better or worse. And if it helps someone else, so much the better. I’ve gotten better at picking things up over the past year. I’ve practiced and…

Things I learned or was reminded of this summer

Random musings, in no particular order: Important things take time. You must have patience. Especially with yourself. Empathy before knowledge: People don’t care what you know until they know that you care. Fear is self-inflicted. Do the thing, one step at a time. Action negates fear. Hesitating feeds it. If you don’t sleep and eat…